MaRsFiRE (marsfire) wrote,


My computer is becoming quite screwy... 1 year without restoring = bad! But I have so much important stuff, and I can't just move it over the network like I used to... It will take a while to do this and tomorrow I am leaving on my trip.

Anyway, I went for a walk at the place I had been with Justin the day before. It was quite a neat place! I didn't know there were that mnay paths there. I had a fun time. And yesterday I went to that Scottish Festival which was cool too. We bought Haggis, but I didn't like it that much (it has some livery taste in it I concluded that that was why I didn't like it heh) but Justin liked it a lot. I wonder if he has meat withdrawl? I don't know if I could be a vegetarian hehh... We also saw the highland dancing this year, and also this thing where they throw this sack over a pole with their back to it and they throw it by holding it with a pitchfork or something like it. We didn't find the neat guy from last year that told stories though :( and we didn't see as many cool weapons as last year. Well, I mean we saw as many probably, but they were mostly just the usual stuff you can find on ebay too, you know? We saw these neat things that sprayed smoke out over water... Hard to explain, they were mini figures with dragons on them often and stuff like that... It looked really cool at any rate. Yah and we saw lots of other stuff too. We went with Stuart and one of his friends, who also came with us to Wonderland back in June. At first we got to listen to my Azaghal/Mustan Kuun Lapset CD in the car, but then we had to listen to Placebo x_x, sometimes I don't get annoyed listening to placebo, but this particular CD was especially gay! YES GAY! I am not homophobic, I am not afraid of gay people, I just personally am not gay and therefore do not enjoy gay music! Heheh... This whole homophobic crap is as stupid as the racist stuff. Look, when people are different, to state that you prefer one quality over the other is not negative it's just being honest instead of irrational. I like nice straight sounding male vocals! Big deal man! Arrgahhh! These songs were like easy listening songs. I described it as "I am so bored, in the summertime" and said/sang that in the guy's voice. Haha, I can just hear that being a placebo song now...

I can't believe the amount of people who are brainwashed by this junk... Ok, now I'm talking like one of these conspiracy people... But people have to learn to think about things more rationally and give real reasons for things not just "it's not faaaaaair, I like this person why can't you like them tooooooo!! I bet it's because he/she's _____" .........

When I am judging an individual person I don't care what they do in their spare time or how they were born, all I care about is their personality/way of thinking etc... These two things can be stereotypically connected though and that is why I might prefer some people over others! Jesus! It's one thing to go out killing people of a certain group and another to just not like a group on average as much. I must have said this a million times... I guess I just feel angry inside because I feel like intelligent people are being pulled into the irrational land of It's never good to say a viewpoint is bad, I see everyday how because NSism is not allowed in so many countries that so many idiots spring up and rebel against that. I think they have little clue why they want to do it other than that they aren't allowed to. Many of these idiots are stupid, but a fair portion of them are intelligent people who just don't know what they are doing. I mean, if you want to feel like you have control to punish people who believe certain things then maybe they are doing the right thing, but if they actually want to put an end to this crap then this is not the right approach. And if I go to and say I am white and prefer white people over black people on average then I am a racist... Ok, this already makes the whole issue very black and white, so if I am already on the bad side, I am more likely to get pulled over to the true racist side, do you see what I mean?

I have no idea where this came from just now. If I want to say "this is gay" and it hurts some gay person's feelings then they are insecure. If someone said to me "this is so girlish" or "this is so german" then it's my fault if I get insecure about it. Big deal! Words can only help make people stronger, it's like a virus and then you become immune to it. People are so whiny, they don't get that being "free" and everyone having to like other people is a contradiction.

On a sidetopic speaking of this kind of stuff, little kids wonder if they are gay already... For pete's sake, the idea that someone could be "gay" is a very new concept. When I was growing up I didn't know what gay was and I didn't worry about this type of stuff. It shouldn't be something a person "is" anyway, it's just something they enjoy. They make their whole life revolve around some pleasure aspect. So I am straight, I shouldn't make my whole life revolve around what I do sexually. This whole "lifestyle" thing is just as dumb with gay people as with anything else. If someone says they are living the black metal lifestyle for example I think that is just as dumb. Basically that makes 1 aspect of oneself be the dominating important aspect and everything else goes down the drain. It basically leaves you with only one quality. So if a gay person does nothing except go on about being gay and living the gay lifestyle how can I not find them stupid? I would find it just as stupid with anything I like, like the example I gave with black metal. If someone is gay it shouldn't make a diff to me if they have other good qualities, but if that is their only quality I don't see what there is that I can like about them. Some people just get so into stuff that the only thing you know about them is just that and the only aspect of themselves that they know is that too. People should stop worrying about such dumb things like "am I gay???? I want to be accepted TOOOO!" and just get on with more important things. If people stopped worrying and stopped focusing on the negative and just acted like they normally would if they didn't know that there could be a problem at least some people would accept them. Instead people bond over insecurities... There are always wackos who want to kill whatever type of people, but in general, people are not like that here. Jesus, for years people have been telling me I am intolerant and terrible and now I have to tell people to realize that a few people with negative intentions doesn't make up the whole.

Uhhh anyway so today and tomorrow are the last days to get ready before the trip. I had better get cracking.
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being gay isn't about being accepted? it isn't something trendy or cool, and i really don't think it's something that people just decide to be. people wonder if they're gay when they realize that they've been doing an awful lot of thinking about fucking people of the same sex, not when they hear other people talk about homosexuality. i really hate when people think that gay people just DECIDE to be gay one day, or just indulge themselves in their sexual fantasies too much etc etc. all gay people seem to get is a lot of ignorance and hate, why would somebody just decide to subject themselves to that?

and just because some gay people "act" gay doesn't mean that their entire personality and worth is defined by their sexual preference. maybe that's all you see because you haven't really gotten to know anybody that's gay, or you're just being quick to judge. being open about your sexuality shouldn't just be a right that some lucky people are granted. it's socially acceptable for me to hold hands with my boyfriend in public, why shouldn't it be okay for a gay man to hold hands with his significant other?

urgh, being active in the gay community doesn't mean that your entire life revolves around it. believe it or not, gay people do crazy things like associate with straight people(!!!), they have jobs, and hobbies and read and listen to music. so i really don't get what you mean when you say that gay people make their whole lives revolve around their sexuality and the pleasure principle. say a gay person goes to a gay bar to meet other gay people, how is that any different from straight people going to a bar to meet other straight people? they aren't accused of living only for pleasure and taking their sexuality out of hand. the gay community is actually a great support system, considering the fact that gay people aren't always that accepted by a lot of heterosexuals.

oh yeah, and it bugs me when people refer to things as "gay", because in general it's a really ignorant and nonsensical adjective. even if you think it's an okay thing to say, maybe you can think about how you're offending other people. i know for a fact that your sister doesn't like it, and you probably know that too. i don't want to argue with you, that's not why i'm replying, i guess i just feel really strongly about this and stupidly feel like i'm at least doing something if i voice my opinion and show my tolerance. (i never knew that tolerance was a bad thing?)

i find this really frustrating, because i know that you're not going to listen to me. yeah, you're allowed to have your own opinion, but for somebody so smart you really are kind of closed-minded. if people call you racist or homophobic it's probably you're passing judgement and making really general statements about a HUGE group of people.
Ok, I think you completely misunderstood me... This is exactly what I mean when I said that the issue gets made very black and white that either you hate gay people or you are super obsessed with protecting them...

I never said anything about people deciding to be gay nor did I say they are born that way. In fact I said that I don't judge people on what their sexuality is. What I was trying to say about the lifestyle thing is when people make their life revolve around it you don't get to know anything about them except that aspect, I was not talking about every gay person I was just talking about some. It's just like people who listen to a certain type of music (as I was saying in the original post) who make their whole image/personality be centered around that. I have been/am friends with people who are gay/bisexual, I don't actually have any problem with it. It doesn't matter if a person can help whether or not they are gay or not, they can help how they behave about it and if any group makes a stereotypical behaviour, some people will find it annoying, and if they follow their own stereotype then why should people have to like them if they find it annoying? I never implied the opposite of this: "urgh, being active in the gay community doesn't mean that your entire life revolves around it. believe it or not, gay people do crazy things like associate with straight people(!!!), they have jobs, and hobbies and read and listen to music."
What I am trying to say is, if a group has a stereotype and that stereotype is unappealing to someone, why should they not be allowed to find people who follow that stereotype annoying? And so if the stereotype was true for a good portion of the people, maybe they would prefer other people over this group? It doesn't matter whether the group is gay or whether they have pet turtles (hehe) it's all about the behaviour.

You said: "oh yeah, and it bugs me when people refer to things as "gay", because in general it's a really ignorant and nonsensical adjective. " maybe "stupid" is an ignorant and nonsensical adjective too because it offends people who are born not as quick to learn things as others... Geez, if people are going to take things that personally then it's their own problem. The "ohhh they've been mistreated" thing is just an excuse for them to get better treatment than everyone else. If someone comes up to me and says I am a shit-eyed person (because my eyes are pretty close to brown) and then I cry about it it's obviously my own insecurities which are upsetting me.
Also, here is this great misconception again, I am not intolerant. I am not out to get rid of gay people at all, I don't mind that they are around and if there are some around I don't push them around or anything, I let them be there and leave them alone. Even if I did feel hate inside at this (which would be a big waste of time) if I didn't do anything I would still be tolerant. I actually don't have any negative thoughts other than that I find girly behaviour somewhat disgusting in girls already and I find sissy behaviour in boys disgusting as well. I do not enjoy the idea of being around people who behave this silly, I don't care whether or not they have anal sex in their spare time. If a straight guy behaved gay like this I would find it just as annoying.

People make general statements everyday, for example boys have to pay more car insurance than girls because girls generally cause less trouble. This is a FACT you can't argue with fact. It is also a fact though that black people are more likely to get in trouble with the law than white people but you're not allowed to say this... Nononono! I think it's awful that people can't state facts these days. You know, people don't understand that if you say "in general, group A does X more than group B and since I think doing X is terrible I prefer group B on average" does not mean that you hate every person in group A! You could still be best friends with a person in group A, because this does not mean that EVERYONE in group A does X.
If someone says this is so "gay" or "jewish" or "nerdy" even, they are talking about the STEREOTYPE of those people, they are not referring to and insulting every person among the group. A big chunk of who people are comes from genes, and it's just a fact that a group of people will on average share similar qualities. People need to stop lying to themselves.

You misunderstood, I don't hate any group. I will judge an individual the same as any other individual. I just know that I am more likely, for personality reasons, to like certain groups over others on average. You can say people are predesposed to do drugs for example, there is some evidence of stuff like this. In fact it's hard to really blame people for anything, but just because I am not blaming them for who they are doesn't mean I have to like them either.

Yah, I know Nina doesn't like this stuff, well sorry, too bad sister. I will voice my opinion just like everyone else.
i didn't want to start a fight or a debate
you are allowed to have whatever opinions you want
ok hehe, I just thought I should clarify what I said before anyway... Sorry if it flooded your e-mail account hehehe
:) <--happy reconciliation face